(Nathan after Waking)
Posted: Thu Aug 13, 2020 5:15 am
((OOC: following Nathan leaving the infirmary tent after waking up.))
Nathan paused and marveled at camp outside the infirmary tent. It was just as he had left it, and yet it felt so strange and foreign now. The other soldier who had awoken continued walking away with purpose, and Nathan envied him. He seemed so much more sure of what his time with the goddess meant and what to do now that he was no longer with her. Meanwhile, Nathan felt more lost than ever.
But he knew he didn’t want to stand in front of the infirmary tent forever. Eventually Captain Rutliff would emerge and--Nathan’s shoulders scrunched and he hugged himself fearfully at the thought, his whole body shivering. It wasn’t exactly that he was afraid the captain would do anything dreadful, but just the thought of his glare hitting Nathan’s body felt like too much to withstand.
Nathan let out a rushed and heavy sigh that trilled his lips before he finally started moving. His walk was brisk and hasty, and admittedly, Nathan had no idea where it was taking him, other than away from the infirmary tent. He let his eyes glaze over, his mind more interested in traversing the woods from his dream and revisiting his memories with the goddess than it was in actually traversing the army camp.
At least until someone called his name.
Nathan blinked and felt disoriented by the sudden transition back to camp again, now in a completely different place and with a vague and looming fear hovering around him as he tried to understand what was happening.
“You’re okay!” the same voice said, closer to him now, and Nathan realized he heard rushed footsteps from the same direction. The sensation of fear was sharper now, piercing his body, but he managed to turn to look at where the voice was coming from.
Relief flooded him. It was Chloe, the best friend he had here. She finished scampering over next to him excitedly, her eyes wide and her whole body beaming with happiness. Nathan was convinced in that moment that she was the brightest, most colorful thing that existed in this world, even though her clothes were just a drab as the tents around them. He smiled, but then buried his face in his hands as he started to cry.
“Oh, Nathan...” Chloe’s voice was sad, which made Nathan feel guilty, but it was also smooth and rich and kind in a way that warmed his heart. In a way that the goddess had sometimes warmed his heart. Although he couldn’t stop crying, he did feel relieved to remember that this world wasn’t as empty as he had feared.
“Come,” Chloe said, and set her hand on Nathan’s shoulder with some pressure that gently nudged him to move. More relief flooded through him as his body followed her lead, glad to have a direction that he didn’t have to conjure all on his own.
She led him into her tent and got him sitting down and wrapped in a blanket, and finally he started to get his tears under control. When he finally managed to open his eyes, he saw through the blur of his tears that Chloe was sitting down next to him, and he felt the weight of her hand returning gently to his shoulder against the blanket. She waited until the last of his gasps and sniffles were quieted and his shoulders were mostly still to speak again.
“You must have been through so much.” she said tenderly. “Is there anything I can do?”
Nathan shook his head and rubbed at his eyes. Then, tried to actually give her question some thought; she deserved that. He smiled tiredly.
“The blanket is good,” he said after a moment, and grasped at it and pulled it more tightly around him before mustering a slightly brighter smile, though he also had to sniffle again in the middle of it. Chloe smiled a wide, bright smile, and the sight of it helped Nathan relax his shoulders.
“Oh, I know! Are you hungry? I can go grab you something if you like!”
Nathan felt a little embarrassed by her enthusiasm, but it did help the warmth in his heart spread to other parts of his body. His smile relaxed, and he honestly considered the question. The truth was that he wasn’t sure, though. His body still felt very strange and confused, and eating sounded like an incredibly bizarre experience, but he couldn’t say for sure that his body wouldn’t appreciate it. And, he did think he would appreciate a moment alone with this blanket, and it seemed like Chloe would appreciate doing something actionable to help. The boy finally nodded, and Chloe’s smile somehow brightened even further.
“Okay, you stay tight! I’ll be back in just a little bit.”
Nathan’s smile relaxed again in kind, and he murmured a shy ‘thanks’ to Chloe as she left. Then he let out a sigh that felt as big as his whole body, and all at once the blanket around him and the ground beneath him felt significantly more real. The boy let himself slough over onto his side and nuzzle deep into the blanket around him, grateful that he could at least appreciate feeling truly safe here, for now, in this blanket in this tent, his friend soon to return with food and sweet company. Maybe, just maybe, he was going to be okay.
((OOC: My brain wanted to type this up in preparation for wherever Nathan’s at before Ari talks to him. This is all still while Dehaljadrun’s talkin to Mizu, so there might be another post or two in this thread before I move over to Ari’s lol… or I might more summarize the rest and go ahead and put it in the thread with Ari, we’ll see! But anyway, figured I may as well post this for now for your reading enjoyment.))
Nathan paused and marveled at camp outside the infirmary tent. It was just as he had left it, and yet it felt so strange and foreign now. The other soldier who had awoken continued walking away with purpose, and Nathan envied him. He seemed so much more sure of what his time with the goddess meant and what to do now that he was no longer with her. Meanwhile, Nathan felt more lost than ever.
But he knew he didn’t want to stand in front of the infirmary tent forever. Eventually Captain Rutliff would emerge and--Nathan’s shoulders scrunched and he hugged himself fearfully at the thought, his whole body shivering. It wasn’t exactly that he was afraid the captain would do anything dreadful, but just the thought of his glare hitting Nathan’s body felt like too much to withstand.
Nathan let out a rushed and heavy sigh that trilled his lips before he finally started moving. His walk was brisk and hasty, and admittedly, Nathan had no idea where it was taking him, other than away from the infirmary tent. He let his eyes glaze over, his mind more interested in traversing the woods from his dream and revisiting his memories with the goddess than it was in actually traversing the army camp.
At least until someone called his name.
Nathan blinked and felt disoriented by the sudden transition back to camp again, now in a completely different place and with a vague and looming fear hovering around him as he tried to understand what was happening.
“You’re okay!” the same voice said, closer to him now, and Nathan realized he heard rushed footsteps from the same direction. The sensation of fear was sharper now, piercing his body, but he managed to turn to look at where the voice was coming from.
Relief flooded him. It was Chloe, the best friend he had here. She finished scampering over next to him excitedly, her eyes wide and her whole body beaming with happiness. Nathan was convinced in that moment that she was the brightest, most colorful thing that existed in this world, even though her clothes were just a drab as the tents around them. He smiled, but then buried his face in his hands as he started to cry.
“Oh, Nathan...” Chloe’s voice was sad, which made Nathan feel guilty, but it was also smooth and rich and kind in a way that warmed his heart. In a way that the goddess had sometimes warmed his heart. Although he couldn’t stop crying, he did feel relieved to remember that this world wasn’t as empty as he had feared.
“Come,” Chloe said, and set her hand on Nathan’s shoulder with some pressure that gently nudged him to move. More relief flooded through him as his body followed her lead, glad to have a direction that he didn’t have to conjure all on his own.
She led him into her tent and got him sitting down and wrapped in a blanket, and finally he started to get his tears under control. When he finally managed to open his eyes, he saw through the blur of his tears that Chloe was sitting down next to him, and he felt the weight of her hand returning gently to his shoulder against the blanket. She waited until the last of his gasps and sniffles were quieted and his shoulders were mostly still to speak again.
“You must have been through so much.” she said tenderly. “Is there anything I can do?”
Nathan shook his head and rubbed at his eyes. Then, tried to actually give her question some thought; she deserved that. He smiled tiredly.
“The blanket is good,” he said after a moment, and grasped at it and pulled it more tightly around him before mustering a slightly brighter smile, though he also had to sniffle again in the middle of it. Chloe smiled a wide, bright smile, and the sight of it helped Nathan relax his shoulders.
“Oh, I know! Are you hungry? I can go grab you something if you like!”
Nathan felt a little embarrassed by her enthusiasm, but it did help the warmth in his heart spread to other parts of his body. His smile relaxed, and he honestly considered the question. The truth was that he wasn’t sure, though. His body still felt very strange and confused, and eating sounded like an incredibly bizarre experience, but he couldn’t say for sure that his body wouldn’t appreciate it. And, he did think he would appreciate a moment alone with this blanket, and it seemed like Chloe would appreciate doing something actionable to help. The boy finally nodded, and Chloe’s smile somehow brightened even further.
“Okay, you stay tight! I’ll be back in just a little bit.”
Nathan’s smile relaxed again in kind, and he murmured a shy ‘thanks’ to Chloe as she left. Then he let out a sigh that felt as big as his whole body, and all at once the blanket around him and the ground beneath him felt significantly more real. The boy let himself slough over onto his side and nuzzle deep into the blanket around him, grateful that he could at least appreciate feeling truly safe here, for now, in this blanket in this tent, his friend soon to return with food and sweet company. Maybe, just maybe, he was going to be okay.
((OOC: My brain wanted to type this up in preparation for wherever Nathan’s at before Ari talks to him. This is all still while Dehaljadrun’s talkin to Mizu, so there might be another post or two in this thread before I move over to Ari’s lol… or I might more summarize the rest and go ahead and put it in the thread with Ari, we’ll see! But anyway, figured I may as well post this for now for your reading enjoyment.))